Bettering Thy Health

Perhaps one of the hardest things we as females struggle with after birth is the day we walk out of the hospital, look in the mirror and think OH GOD, you cant even tell I lost weight. After 9 months of thinking Im gonna be right back to what I looked like pre baby, you get a glance of post baby. I know that for most of us, post baby isnt great. I was thin all my life but when I got pregnant with Logan 4 years ago, I thought I would drop all the weight just like the rest of the women in my family did. However, after gaining 98lbs and only dropping 20 within the first 2 weeks I figured out that I no longer had the skinny gene. I tried gyms and exercise videos but never really did them. I was depressed. Id look in the mirror and hate what I saw. Stretch makes and flabby skin, a double chin and a whole lot of fat. I visited my parents shortly after and seeing my mother and sister looking better then ever just made me envious. I tried to put on a brave face and joke about it but deep down I just felt worse. I had no friends and no family anywhere near me and I just started to literally waste away in my room till I decided one day that I would not let this define me. My son deserves a mom that is not at risk of an early heart attack. I strongly succest that if your trying to lose weigth invest in rollerblades and a jogger.

I guess this is an INTRO.......basic and boring....lol

Ive been making blog after blog after blog and deleting them all cause none of them have any major importance, but I think this one is gonna stick. Im a 24 year old mom of 2 wonderful children. My son Logan who is just about 3 years and my daughter Payton who is just about 6 months. My hubby and I decided before Payton was born that our family is complete with the 4 of us. No more babies in my future. I thought I had mothering figured out by now and that my life couldnt possibly change like it did when I had Logan , but here we are almost 3 years after I became a mother and its changing again in the blink of an eye.
Its weird how It changed so much when I had Logan but it wasnt really me that changed with Logan, It was my life. My friends changed and habits and such. Started to hang out with different crowds but inside I was the same person as I was before I got pregnant only with a kid and no party life. But this time Its me thats changing and my life is the constant. My friends are still the same and my life feels normal but the me inside is screaming to be better.
So what is it thats changing and making me want to be someone else. Its that wee little voice in your head that tells you how much better you can be. How much more you can learn if you open your eyes and ears and follow the voice of your soul. You dont have to start big by any means. Small changes can lead to greatness. Following your heart will make you happy. And taking the time to learn something new can open up doors that you never even knew existed.